THE man accused of murdering schoolgirl Tia Sharp wrote to his father from prison to say her death was an "accident."
Stuart Hazell added he "should have gone about this a different way and told police everything."
At the top of the letter, sent from HMP Belmarsh, he wrote "forgive me x".
The letter was intercepted by prison authorities, and read by the prosecution to jurors at the Old Bailey yesterday (Friday).
Hazell, 37, denies murder. The trial continues.
Here is the full text of his letter:
Dear Dad,
I am probably the last person you want to hear from. Every thing in papers ain't true they twist and make their own shit up, what happened I will explain but put it this way, it was an accident.
I panicked, stupid I know but for my stupidity I am looking at 15-18 years. I regret it every second of every day and there's nothing I can do about it.
I think about taking my own life because if I don't someone will that is definite. I'm classed as a Cat A prisoner - never thought this would ever happen.
I hope you not getting aggro because of me, you know I'm not the bad person everyone's saying. I can't sleep can't eat I wish I could turn back the clock.
I sorry to of lied to you but didn't know what to do. If you rip this up or don't want to know me again I wouldn't blame you.
Christine got arrested. She had nothing to do with this I loved her with all my heart and soul. God I hate myself - I should of gone about this a different way told the police everything.
Their trying to say it is sexual but I promise it wasn't, It was an accident and I was a prick to do what I done.
If I had the chance I would end it all now. I got no money, no fags, no hope it's the Hazell curse and I only got myself to blame and that will stick with me till my time comes which won't be long.
I just want you to know I love you all, I know Christine and family will never forgive me and I know what's coming and I deserve it.
I want to ask you a favour and one favour only send me a little bit of money and I will never ask anything of you ever again.
One mistake and my whole world has collapsed, my own fault I know but don't listen to the papers like everyone else. I will tell you in time.
I love you all - no doubt you will hear I'm in Old Bailey soon.
Tell Sarah and Marc and kids I'm sorry, and Mum Darren and family.
May god have mercy on my soul even thought I don't deserve it.
Love always
Your son
Stuart
xxx
I'm sorry truly, truly sorry
xxx
If you want a V.O (visiting order) let me know dad with all your details xx
